So -- in the first four months of the year, I:

-- Got 3 new piercings. This is the latest:


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The blizzard aftermath left me without power for a day and a half (in addition to a few hours the day before). This will be the second greatest shower of my life, second only to post-childbirth. [We don't have water when we don't have power because there is nothing to power our water pump.] Trenton stayed with the in-laws last night, as per his ( Read more... )

Really, this is the best holiday moment ever.

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TJ and I actually finished Christmas shopping early this year. We only have a couple more things to do, and it feels nice to not be stressing out over this nonsense. This is the first Christmas we've really been settled into our house. We have a Charlie Brown Christmas tree. This makes us awesome ( Read more... )

Today, I go to the doctor, and I don't know whether to be relieved or scared. Mostly, I'm relieved that I'm on my way to getting some things resolved, that I no longer have to feel hopeless because doing this means there is hope. I've been in a better mood as a result because I know that things will be different for me ( Read more... )

I have had a lot going on that I haven't really been talking about. On top of the external stressers of helping TJ and Trenton through their adjustment onto various medications and TJ's eventual need to switch to another, I have been fighting my own demons. I have been in an extreme depressive and anxiety state for a while. It has gotten really ( Read more... )

I fear: death (both mine and that of those I care about), loss in any capacity really, being without love, never finding the woman of my dreams, things I cannot control and freak occurrences, losing my health, never being happy with myself, the eventual collapse of some of those closest to me and really...my own anxieties.

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My thoughts are a bit scattered, but I'll try to update with something not meme-related, I suppose.

-- I have a lot of really exciting modeling stuff coming up within the next month or so. I am booking for a group shoot in Dayton and I'm shooting with the amazing Ama Lea. Modeling life is good. A photographer sent one of my images in for ( Read more... )

Recently, I've come to the realization that, through the course of my development, I never really had a constructive method of dealing with my problems. When I was in middle school, I pretended to be happy because I was embarrassed to feel any other way. When I was in high school, I dealt with my demons by sobbing, cutting and depriving myself of ( Read more... )

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-- I removed the friend's boyfriend. I am not going to try to debate with someone who is unwavering in their negativity and doesn't show respect to me. He is rude, and I do not deal well with people who lack manners. I have tried so hard to refrain from commenting on her statuses that he has made it a point to clutter up with his narrow-minded, ( Read more... )